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thefridayfive, a pretty introspective one this week!
1. What did you want to be when you grew up?
when I was quite young, I wanted to be a vet - up until I learned that vets actually do things, and don't just play with puppies all day, lol. I think once that bubble burst I pretty much always had the vague idea of being a professional artist.
2. Did you follow through? If not, what happened?
Somewhat! For a short time! I was a professional graphic designer for just short of a year. I'm starting to poke my head back into the industry now, but of course, the whole thing is basically on fire and exploding right now, so.... retail work for me right now.
3. Is your life turning out the way you thought it would when you were a kid? If not, is it better or worse?
not necessarily. I never had much of a solid idea about my future (lifelong anxiety made me live solidly in the moment, I'm afraid... I was so worried about everything happening to me I hardly had the time to think about what would happen later), but I know I had pretty traditional American South Christian Upbringing thoughts as a child, and a bit later I really only thought about getting rich somehow. I, uhh... don't really know if it's better or worse just now.
unrelated, but I did have a very specific half-joke life plan in high school that went something like this: publish a book by 20, become a famous author by 21, retire to the coast and open my own personal art gallery with the money at 22, and walk into the ocean never to return at 23. well... that didn't exactly pan out.
4. Paradoxes aside, if you could time-travel back to when you were 10 years old, what would you tell your 10-year-old self?
hmm.... this is a tough one. I think probably just "you're a sensitive person, you're always going to be. your emotions are really big sometimes and people aren't gonna know what to do with them sometimes. it's ok, it's painful but it's beautiful to feel so strongly. life's worth sticking around for. find the joy."
5. Do you think the child you were, would like the adult you've become?
hmm. my initial thought was no, but I think that's probably my insecurity talking. I have harbored Secretly Queer thoughts for the majority of my life, so I think I would be silently awed that I ended up figuring it out and owning it later on. middle school me would never admit that out loud though.
thefridayfive, a pretty introspective one this week!1. What did you want to be when you grew up?
when I was quite young, I wanted to be a vet - up until I learned that vets actually do things, and don't just play with puppies all day, lol. I think once that bubble burst I pretty much always had the vague idea of being a professional artist.
2. Did you follow through? If not, what happened?
Somewhat! For a short time! I was a professional graphic designer for just short of a year. I'm starting to poke my head back into the industry now, but of course, the whole thing is basically on fire and exploding right now, so.... retail work for me right now.
3. Is your life turning out the way you thought it would when you were a kid? If not, is it better or worse?
not necessarily. I never had much of a solid idea about my future (lifelong anxiety made me live solidly in the moment, I'm afraid... I was so worried about everything happening to me I hardly had the time to think about what would happen later), but I know I had pretty traditional American South Christian Upbringing thoughts as a child, and a bit later I really only thought about getting rich somehow. I, uhh... don't really know if it's better or worse just now.
unrelated, but I did have a very specific half-joke life plan in high school that went something like this: publish a book by 20, become a famous author by 21, retire to the coast and open my own personal art gallery with the money at 22, and walk into the ocean never to return at 23. well... that didn't exactly pan out.
4. Paradoxes aside, if you could time-travel back to when you were 10 years old, what would you tell your 10-year-old self?
hmm.... this is a tough one. I think probably just "you're a sensitive person, you're always going to be. your emotions are really big sometimes and people aren't gonna know what to do with them sometimes. it's ok, it's painful but it's beautiful to feel so strongly. life's worth sticking around for. find the joy."
5. Do you think the child you were, would like the adult you've become?
hmm. my initial thought was no, but I think that's probably my insecurity talking. I have harbored Secretly Queer thoughts for the majority of my life, so I think I would be silently awed that I ended up figuring it out and owning it later on. middle school me would never admit that out loud though.